What I couldn’t say II

I had been thinking of what you said here. It does seem that things got worse from there on with your addictions. It didn’t start there though. You had been drinking long before Gatlinburg. It was one of the things Mom would call and bitch about because Tina was a recovering alcoholic. The only reason I bring it up is I know NOW Gatlinburg was Kim’s fault. Mamaw staying in Bulls Gap as long as she did was Kim’s fault. The 3 years I spent on my couch alone and desperate to die was Kim’s fault. If there is anything I left out just let me know. I’m not being pissy. I was blindsided by the four of you and had absolutely NO idea why? I still don’t. Then you want me to take Em to see your photo’s because your page is open and there are NO photos that she would really care to see and the post about me holding onto bitterness is obviously hidden. I’m not causing drama. I don’t want drama. I want to live up to what my karma debt is and let everyone else have theirs. That’s exactly why I told Dad I do not want any part of any of you. You, you sat there and listened to me cry because no one would help me get her out of there. You, you were telling me I should get her to change the POA. You, you know better than anyone that I don’t abuse my medication and I have never done anything stronger than pot. Yet, I’m still hearing I’m addicted to drugs. I’m in rehab in TX. I’m getting CC offers in the name Dailey L Aldridge. After mom got bored of trying to cause me to kill myself? I had never, ever, been able to just live life, have fun with you and our families and not be angry about anything. After Gatlinburg, I found out what life was about. The promises we made to each other when we were kids were all being kept. I finally was able to just have my family. When I realized you had been stabbing me in the back, after the 2 years you just left me alone and I craved just a text from you and you were helping push me away from the only person -I- ever had? I died. I told Dad goodbye, that I wanted him to let you and Bo know I was sorry I ever took any of Dad’s love because it wasn’t fair. He was your Dad. You were his daughter

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